The Bitterest Truth

Meri zindagi kay haal (present) ka sub say baRRa aur kaRRwa (bitter) such ye hai ke mai'n abhi tak uss depression aur hyper tension kay shikanjay say poori tarah rehaani nahi pa saka hoon jiss nay barso'n say mujhay buri tarah apni grift mei'n jakRRa hua hai.  Mai'n aaj bhi usi band gali mei'n phansa hua hoo'n jiss mei'n Javaid Garments ki job quit karnay kay baad quaid ho gaya tha.

Sirf apnay ird gird kay maahaul par artificiality ka kambal daal kar khud ko tu ye yaqeen dilaanay mei'n kaafi hadd  tak kaamyaab ho gaya ke sub kuch ttheek hai lekin haalaat mei'n koi practical change nahi la saka.  Positive thinking ka dhandora peet'tay peet'tay itna zurur hua hai ke meri baato'n aur behaviour mei'n negativity ka element nazar nahi aata aur meray nazdeek ye bhi aik bahut baRRi achievement hai.

Last week meri choti beti nay mujh say sawaal kiya tha ke papa aap ki life ki achievement kya hai?  Mera jawaab tha 'Meri koi aik achievement aisi nahi hai jiss ki buniyaad par mera naam heroes ya celebrities mei'n shaamil kiya ja sakay.  Albatta choti choti kuch aisi achievements zurur hai'n jin par mai'n positive sense mai'n fakhr kar sakta hoo'n.

Jaisay ke 1970 mei'n cricket kay junoon aur kite flying ki wajah say Metric mei'n 5 subjects mei'n compartment aanay kay baad bina kisi tuition aur external help kay aglay hi saal science kay subjects mei'n first division lena, kisi bhi ustaad ki help kay bina 2 years tak inter-collegiate competitions mei'n har baar top three mei'n say kam az kam aik aur umooman 2 prize haasil karna.

Phir 2008 mei'n Mian Allauddin kay fraud kay nateejay mei'n business mei'n laga hua aik aik rupiah ganwa denay kay baad suicidal depression say na sirf akelay fight back karna bul-ke ghar kay andar negative fiza na paida honay dena waghera.'

Iss tamaam struggle ka aik nateejah tu ye hai ke meri family itnay baRRay financial loss kay baad haalaat kay negative influence say kaafi hadd tak mehfooz rahi.  Aur doosra musbat pehlu ye hai ke bahut say logo'n ki expectations kay khilaaf meri shaoori haalat aur sochnay samajhnay ki salaahiyat bhi baaqi rahi jo ke bajaaey khud aik bahut baRRi achievement hai.  Aur ye sub kuch Allah Karim ki khususi blessings kay baghair mumkin na tha.  Positve thinking bhi tu aik bahot baRRi ne'mat hai, agar deeply socha jaaey tu.

Shadeed tareen financial crisis aur muaashi challenges ki zanjeero'n mein jakRRa honay kay baawujood mai'n nay do kaam aisay kiyay hai'n jo meray halqa-e-ahbaab mei'n koi aur nahi kar saka.  Number aik http://www.ezinearticles.com par 25 articles likhna aur kuch blogs create karna jin mei'n khaas taur par http://thinksucceeded.blogspot.com aur http://e-maqzine.blogspot.com par abb 11000 say zyaadah pageviews register ho chukay hai'n, haalaan-ke mai'n samajhta hoo'n ke mai'n inn dono'n blogs kay saath woh insaaf nahi kar saka jo mujhay mazeed koshish karkay karna chaahiyay tha lekin phir bhi aik tarah ka itmenaan hai ke suicidal depression jaisi jaan leva kaifiyat say guzarnay kay baad bhi mai'n aik aisa, chota sa hi sahi, kaam karnay mei'n kaamyaab ho saka jiss ka kuch na kuch faayedah, husool-e-maa'loomaat ki hadd tak duniya kay 100 say zyaadah countries kay visitors ko kisi na kisi surat tu pahonch raha hai.

The bitterest truth is that I have still not been able to earn any money due to some factors over which I have no control at all.  However, I 'm still struggling to create and play some blind cards to certainly win the jackpot.  And the basic idea of those blind cards will not be disclosed to anyone until I play and show them to the world myself.